I think that something like to meet with friends or to study the lesson has becomed into a need. To keep our social status doesn't give us just a site in the world, it also defend us from him. A protection maked by a repression of our primary instincts and also a beautiful mask provides us security, but this security is weak and it can be dispelled. I think that those nobile people, that are so correct and formal, should have a lot of mentals problems (if they tries to keep this personality all the day). They are forced by theirselves to be good looked by their "friends", work members and also unknowed people. They think that if they are good looked they'll live better and will obtain more pleasure, and it could be, because society reward these people, but this mentality (dogmatic, closed, steady, correct...) will generate unwell and questions like "where do I want to arrive?".
I'm not just referring to upper class, I'm referring to a mentality that all us have, that mentality that stops us to do what we want or "need" to do. For example, the last day of this first semester I feel the need to hit something, or to scream very loud, I didn't want to go home, to be on holidays and not be able to see my friends everyday... and I couldn't do that because teachers or my classmates should have stopped me. Sometimes I feel that I need to do something eccentric, like to run fast and far away, to go out one night to anywhere, to jump up a table, to shout to a teacher etc. and I can't do it because I'd have punished. But this need tortures me and I don't want to live as a repressed. Sometimes people says that I'm so strange because I do strange things, but I think that they're the strange people because they don't do what I do, and I do what I really want to do, without repressions, with freedom.
